Feel The Fear

A few weeks ago I found a lump in my neck.

Turns out, it is a fairly sizeable mass on my thyroid. I don’t yet know what caused it or why it’s growing, though I do have a biopsy scheduled on Oct. 9th, to get more information.

In the meantime, I’ve been thinking about a lot of things.

Especially things typically related to the 5th or Throat Chakra.
  • Self expression
  • Speaking my truth
  • Allowing my dreams to have a voice

I’ve never not been very good about doing any of these things, so it is no surprise that my body, and soul, have decided to do something as drastic as grow a mass in my neck to get my attention.

Thank you Body & Soul…

HONESTY MOMENT:

I’ve never been comfortable speaking my voice, and I admittedly spend a lot of time “stuffing” my emotions as a way of avoiding uncomfortable conversations, or saying something I may later regret.

(I’m pretty hot tempered!)

I’m also really good about dreaming and scheming, but not as confident about putting my great ideas into action.

But what about the things I’m not aware of — you know, those unconscious patterns that are playing out over and over again behind the scenes?

I decided to look into it.

Louise Hay says the metaphysical root of thyroid problems is:

Humiliation.

“I never get to do what I want to do. When is it going to be my turn?”

WOW.

That really resonates.

Especially as a woman who continually puts everyone else’s needs above my own.

(And I don’t think I’m the only one, am I ladies?)

Now, about that Humiliation thing…

Humiliation is not something I feel so much now, but as a child, OMG, YES!

I was shrouded in it.

You know that dream where you show up to school and unzip your jacket, only to realized you’re not wearing a shirt?

YEAH, THAT.

All. The. Damn. Time.

I also read somewhere that Thyroid issues crop up when you are ignoring your psychic or intuitive impulses.

Mmmm…this nodule here might be onto something…

I’ve been hearing for years that I need to be doing BIG work in the world. And yet (and probably because I’m deeply afraid of being humiliated), I hold back. I play small.

I ignore, or put off acting on, my IGS (inner guidance system), and spend more time hiding than being seen.

Apparently this is no longer acceptable to my body, or my spirit!

AND THANK GOD, Right?

In an effort to be more visible, to have more impact in the world, and as a way of honoring my body, mind and spirit, I am opening up my healing schedule in a bold and committed way.

Over a course of the next 20 days, I am giving away 20 healing sessions with me.

Yup, you read that right.

I’m giving them away.

(And as of 6 am this morning, 5 of them have already been booked!)

WHY, you ask?

For the last few years, I have taken a step back from my healing practice, in an effort to honor the needs of my eldest child, whom we have decided to homeschool.

It has been quite a journey and it has taken me some time to find our rhythm. Now that we are settling into year two, I feel more than ready to get back into the habit and flow of seeing clients again.

Side note: Later in 2015, or early 2016, I will be launching a new program (The HeartSpeak Academy), which is the culmination of my life’s work. And doing these sessions, in this way, will give me a chance to connect with 20 women I might not yet know, or haven’t worked with in a long time. And I want to do so, as a way of finding out what you deeply long for. What you are afraid of saying, or putting out into the world?

And, I want to be a support to you, in healing those old voices and stories, so you can bravely give voice to your dreams and share your unique gifts with the world.

I’m also doing this for the sake of re-claiming some space to do the things I LOVE, which is providing sacred space for women to explore their connection with The Divine and the jewels buried deep inside their hearts.

What’s the catch?

There are none. If it turns out you love the work we do, I will offer you an opportunity to continue working with me at a reduced rate for the duration of 2015.

I will also ask for a testimonial — however there is no obligation at all — for you to give one. I simply ask that you share what the experience is like if your heart guides you to do so!

I know you have dreams that are longing to be expressed. Guidance that wants to be heard. And ideas that want to be made manifest. And that you (like me) have blind spots and stories that hold you back from living the life you truly long for.

I’d love the opportunity to hold space for you to clear them out so that together we can make a profound and powerful difference in our own lives, homes, communities and in the world!

Just as God intended.

 

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